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silversolitaire) wrote2000-10-13 11:23 am
silversolitaire) wrote2000-10-13 11:23 am
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I woke up shockingly early today. After only six hours of sleep. I couldn't go back to sleep. I was worried about my brother failing his crucial exam for the third time, about my mother dying of lung cancer, about being lonely and everything. I've finished my latest story yesterday. It's off my shoulders which means I can finally read again. And I've already read 100 more pages of Harry Potter. Which is good. I might be able to make it. It's finally capturing me. Somehow it wouldn't do the job before. I think it's a psychological barrier inside me, because I know it's the last book for now and I have to get along many months without any new Potter input. And I know some plot details that make me very sad, and I don't even know why they make be sad, because I don't even care much for it. Maybe it's death that saddens me...
There are so many things I have to read, and so many I want to read. I have to read Edward II, Hero and Leander and Doctor Faustus by Kit Marlowe. Maurice by E.M. Foster. The rest of the Ripley novels I haven't read yet. So many books... yes, you guessed right. I'm taking a course this term about "Same Sex Desires in Literature". This is going to be fun... What I want to read is a lot. I want to read the Magic's-trilogy by Mercedes Lackey. I want to read the Vampire Chronicles by Anne Rice at last. They are even on my reading list. I wish I could read faster.
I can't breathe again. But this time it's physical. It's the allergy. Now I'm left between the choice of feeling like I'm dying or taking the spray and feeling even worse, but at least not running the danger of really dying. I already took the decision and I'm feeling very sick now. I hate this spray. It sickens me. I get dizzy and sick, all shaky, unable to walk for half an hour, just wanting to curl up and fade away. What's the use of this? Why does it make me feel so bad when it's supposed to relieve me? What's the use of this then? Is it the absurdity of sickness? I really don't like it... I wish I had a choice.
There are so many things I have to read, and so many I want to read. I have to read Edward II, Hero and Leander and Doctor Faustus by Kit Marlowe. Maurice by E.M. Foster. The rest of the Ripley novels I haven't read yet. So many books... yes, you guessed right. I'm taking a course this term about "Same Sex Desires in Literature". This is going to be fun... What I want to read is a lot. I want to read the Magic's-trilogy by Mercedes Lackey. I want to read the Vampire Chronicles by Anne Rice at last. They are even on my reading list. I wish I could read faster.
I can't breathe again. But this time it's physical. It's the allergy. Now I'm left between the choice of feeling like I'm dying or taking the spray and feeling even worse, but at least not running the danger of really dying. I already took the decision and I'm feeling very sick now. I hate this spray. It sickens me. I get dizzy and sick, all shaky, unable to walk for half an hour, just wanting to curl up and fade away. What's the use of this? Why does it make me feel so bad when it's supposed to relieve me? What's the use of this then? Is it the absurdity of sickness? I really don't like it... I wish I had a choice.